wish I could stop hating myself.
stop blaming everything on me.
mistakes that I made.
know I'm too far from perfect.
even when I did nothing,
I still got the wrath.
sometimes I wonder to just leave.
to feel nothing.
wish I could forgive and forget,
even time takes it long.
healing and just forgetting .
but this wound has numb.
need to let go.
swallow these medicines.
the bitterness of them,
will heal me some day.