Maaf

ibu bapak, aku minta maaf sampai sekarang belum bisa membahagiakan kalian. aku tumbuh dengan tidak bahagia. aku tumbuh dengan membenci diri, insecure, marah dan getir. hingga detik ini aku masih susah payah membahagiakan diri, berlapang dada dan menerima keadaan. gelasku masih kosong, aku tidak punya untuk mengisi kalian. Aku minta maaf.aku tumbuh ada andil kalian, tapi aku sudah mulai memaafkan. tapi aku masih getir dan kosong. sisa arang masih...

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Jadilah Bahagia, Hiduplah Bahagia.

One of the shittiest thing happened today. I don't have energy to hold on today. I'm so tired and sleepy. I'm tired of crying, but also I feel relief after. God indeed really protect me. But somehow I really lost all my trust to men. I have felt pain over again.  But why do I always feel like I'm craving being loved by a Man romanticly.Rasa kesepian yang memaksaku untuk terus mencari kegiatan dan hobi untuk mengalihkannya. Sampai aku sering...

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Happy Memories in Timika 2024

There was a feeling that I didn't want to come to Timika because I was too worried. I was afraid and anxious cause it was my first time traveling far away alone. Plus, I've only been on a plane once in my life (at that time I went with my office friends, so I just went with the flow). But if you think...

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Kebijakan Privasi Blog ini

 - Hak untuk menghapusApabila iklan yang tampil kedepannya menimbulkan kontroversi, maka pemilik blog berhak menghapusnya.- Hak untuk memperbaikiApabila ada iklan yang ini ditambahkan, dapat direvisi (dengan kebijakan pemilik blog)-Hak untuk menolakApabila iklan yang tayang mengandung unsur SARA, kebencian, ketelanjangan, dan sensitif berhak untuk ditolak.Note: Kebijakan bersifat dinamis dan open, dapat berubah sewaktu-wa...

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Just a Stupid Prank

I received a note on my desk. It written that someone loves me. I was in cloud nine. Cause I never received any. Deep down I know something isn't right. I know very well about myself. That no guy would fall for me. With my looks and pudgy thighs. It turned out to be a truth.  It was all just a stupid prank.So much I wanted to deny it.So much I pretend it's not hurtHe said "sorry, It was all for fun".All...

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