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There was a feeling that I didn't want to come to Timika because I was too worried. I was afraid and anxious cause it was my first time traveling far away alone. Plus, I've only been on a plane once in my life (at that time I went with my office friends, so I just went with the flow). But if you think about it, this is probably a once in a lifetime opportunity, it would be a loss if I missed it.
Okay, in front of the gate, I walked back and forth to check whether I was at the right gate, cause boarding time was coming up. Luckily, Rudi was kind enough to guide me and accompany me virtually before boarding. Thank God when I left, it turned out not to be as scary as that. The Timika - Makassar journey was around 2 hours 15 minutes. Transiting at UPG I was in a cold sweat, I was confused and didn't know the direction. I kept walking following the people while looking at the signs.
Arrived at the counter to report, got the latest boarding pass, checked in and xray, waited at the gate for around 2 hours and 30 minutes. Take off at 4.40 am from Makassar and finally land in Mozes Kilangin airport at 8.35 am.
It feels like entering another world. Cause the weather at that time was rainy, foggy and cold. I pinched my arm to see if this was a dream. I really didn't expect to be able to set foot and breathe the air of Papua. The tiredness of 10 hours of traveling disappeared, I was full of smiles on the first day
The First Day
From the airport I was picked up by Mr. Afandy and Mrs. Sulis to Dasi Timika office, but before that we dropped Mrs. Andaru at the hotel. Arriving at the Timika office, I was extremely happy to meet Ka Dewi, Kerin, Ka Ani in person. Because we usually communicate virtually. And of course there is Mr Daniel.
As usual, we chatted, joked, teased each other. Until finally Mr. Daniel promoted his friend to be introduced to me. The information that his friend was kind, recommended in person, the name was Anugrah Hartadi. I was also given a photo to see. Indeed, when I left for Timika, I hoped that I could find a boyfriend here of if I lucky enough a husband.
So when I was matched, I didn't refuse. It's really wrong for me to set my expectation too high to uncertain thing. I've warned myself to control. don't get emotional easily, let alone fall in love.
Finished the office at 5 pm. I was allowed to sleep at Mr Afandy's house which is located in Kuala Kencana. Mrs. Sulis is also extraordinarily kind, I feel treated like her own child.
This was a very memorable atmosphere for me, my first time visiting Kuala Kencana. Before entering the area, we passed the guard post. From there the vibes were very strange. Like entering another world. Drizzling, cold, a bit foggy, tall trees on the side of the road, a bit mystical, the road is clean.
This is the residential atmosphere. Very comfortable.
The Second Day
July, 14 2024 Dasi Timika family gathering event. Finally I was able to meet colleagues who until now only knew their names, they were all kind and friendly. We arrived at the location at 7.39 am then immediately helped with the preparations. To be honest, I was confused about how to help, cause from the start I wasn't involved, I was afraid I would end up causing trouble if I was too involved.
Mr. Daniel poked me, "He is Anugrah, the one who spoke using a microphone. He's cool isn't he? he is event coordinator. He's a good kid, and nimble. He's an organization lad too."
In my mind at that time, Anugrah looks like my crush when I was in college. His body posture, public speaking, even his hair style really reminded me of my crush back then. At that time I didn't expect anything. Cause in my mind it seemed like he wasn't interested in me.
Long story short, the event went smoothly and was fun. And it was time to sit back and relax with Mr. Daniel and I chatted lightly. I don't know how, Mr. Daniel called Anugrah and asked us to meet directly. In the first, I didn't expect his response was like as if he was interested in me. I'm like a dog with two tails.
He's the type of person who is easy to love. Or is it me who falls in love too easily? I was in cloud nine, finally I can find a new love, but Enggar is too naive and innocent. The stupid Enggar was too happy to be aware that pain was about to come.
We continued to chat that night. I'm like a teenage girl who head over heels.
The Third Day
The morning at the office went normally, there were interludes of banter about the usual things. I'm still continuing to chat with Anugrah. I'll be going home tomorrow, I hope to be able to walk around Timika alone with him. Thankfully he seemed to be able to read my mind. I asked permission to Mr Afandy to go on a date with Anugrah and also borrow an operational car, thank God he immediately agreed.
It was really cute when he came to pick me up at Mr Afandy's house. Saying goodbye to his parents like a young man asking the daughter out on a date. It was a bit awkward and distant in car, somehow the atmosphere slowly melted and the conversation naturally enjoyable. He talked about his family, going to college as a member of an organization, about work. There are several things that made me fall in love in that second. He loves his parents very much, he has a vision and ambition for his career and future. He is willing to work hard to be able to support his family, he is diligent and obedient to pray Sholat
You all think that this is the bare minimum that a man must have. Nowadays, this value is difficult and rare.
It was really sweet when he asked if he could hold my hand, of course he could. He's sweet and gentlemen, it's melting my heart. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I was loved and wanted. I wish that night time would go slower, so that I could spend more time with him. And we kissed. I was on cloud nine. I poured my love for him into that kissed, I treasure that a lot. And one thing I know then, the sparks in his eyes were just the reflection of the love I have for him.
I don't know what I've done wrong. When I arrived in Jakarta he seemed distant, to the point that we no longer communicated. I knew this would come. But the wound still hurts like it fresh. Up to this second I still shed tears, the pain is unbearable. He apologized for not being able to be what I wanted.
The lesson is, don't fall in love too fast and too hard. Don't fall in love when you're lonely. Never set your expectation, never put your hope on someone.
But I thank you for the beautiful night, I would never forget the happines and pain you gave. In case you're wondering, I have loved you in the first touch of a hand.
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I want to say a big thank you to Mr. Afandy and Mrs. Sulis, who sponsors my trip to Timika. They were so kind while I was in Timika. May God reward you many times for your kindness.
