AWAY

 

seven years has passed.
think I'm getting better.
guess I'm wrong.
still fragile and vulnerable.

it's too much to take.
I become hardly to breathe.
when will it over?
I wanna go away.

hurt is such an understatment.
it's no more wound.
already numb.
couldn't feel anything more.

sometimes I want to give up.
but God haven't let me yet.
just not this time, one day.
sometimes I'm afraid of going away.

I'm not afraid,
of what I'll leave behind.
I'm just afraid,
what am I going to say to God for giving up.

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SORE

been feeling the same over again.
thought you'd care.
thought you'd give a damn about me.
thought I was mean something.

same old pain but different day.
guess I'm very good at hiding things.
I hide all of these feelings.
clearly I didn't mean something to you.

I feel more insecure.
I'm getting scare of having a hope.
I'm crying, but my eyes aren't wet.
my lung screams for help.

I never understand any of this.
sure thing is, it's hurt.
I blamed it all to myself.
for being a loser since day one.

been praying every day for a better.
been struggling to leave the pain.
been hiding too long in time.
been waiting for this pain to finally stop.

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