WRONG

difficult to love my own self. 

angry everytime I look in the mirror.

don't want to see this face. 

cause I see no point in there. 

I'm afraid to have a hope. 

it'll set myself high. 

my head will be covered with clouds.

and the ground is out of my sight. 

I didn't realize how high I was. 
keep flying, forgetting about what's below. 
till I finally hit the ground hard. 
Hurt and I got nothing to blame. 

hard not to angry with myself. 
all the hate inside of me. 
I'm drowning in a lake of hatred.
I swim, try to reach the surface.

I will die, 
if I'm not going up surface. 
I can't make it, 
if I'm not swimming faster. 

I'm not okay. 
till I find peace in me. 
I won't be okay, 
until I forgive myself.

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BUILT MY WALL

 

I've built my wall high.
Hope that you don't come through.
The heart was soft now's hard.
Hard enough you can't break it.

To be loved is beautiful.
Everyone wants to be loved.
What if you got one sided love?
Is love still beautiful?

To be in love makes you happy.
There is a time you'll fall out love.
It'll make you think.
Love isn't always beautiful.

There'll be a time you'd realise.
Love isn't all you need.
You're grateful for wall you've built.
To prevent sadness caused by love.

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INVISIBLE

been standing in front of mirror.
been staring at her reflection.
been doing anything to make perfection.
been thinking pretty enough to go.

smiling for the last time.
red lips, thick lashes, dark brows.
her perfume always in purse.
she's ready to had the time of her life.

she walks by the glass door.
she's frowning cause it betrays her.
been thinking that she's beautiful enough.
but the glass door says otherwise.

she's feeling tears are welling up.
how could anyone fall for her look?
she's trying hard to be beautiful.
but still nobody glance at her.

then she sits in the corner of the room.
she ignores everyone and everything.
iphone in her hand to keep company.
being invisible and pretend never existed.

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AWAY

 

seven years has passed.
think I'm getting better.
guess I'm wrong.
still fragile and vulnerable.

it's too much to take.
I become hardly to breathe.
when will it over?
I wanna go away.

hurt is such an understatment.
it's no more wound.
already numb.
couldn't feel anything more.

sometimes I want to give up.
but God haven't let me yet.
just not this time, one day.
sometimes I'm afraid of going away.

I'm not afraid,
of what I'll leave behind.
I'm just afraid,
what am I going to say to God for giving up.

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SORE

been feeling the same over again.
thought you'd care.
thought you'd give a damn about me.
thought I was mean something.

same old pain but different day.
guess I'm very good at hiding things.
I hide all of these feelings.
clearly I didn't mean something to you.

I feel more insecure.
I'm getting scare of having a hope.
I'm crying, but my eyes aren't wet.
my lung screams for help.

I never understand any of this.
sure thing is, it's hurt.
I blamed it all to myself.
for being a loser since day one.

been praying every day for a better.
been struggling to leave the pain.
been hiding too long in time.
been waiting for this pain to finally stop.

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STILL THE SAME

I have written all of my feelings.
and there's no left to write.
cause I'm feeling the same.
Guess then I'll just write the same.

I don't know exactly what it is.
pain that I shouldn't have felt.
but I feel it over and over.
wish I could tell you how I feel.

I mask it so you can't see.
I hide it so you won't notice.
but, do you ever see the pain shines through my eyes?
oh, never! cause I won't let you.

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FINE DAY

a simple talk,
causing a lots of laugh.
a simple glance,
causing loads of love.

only yesterday I found myself give up.
only yesterday I started to letting go.
and I forgot it today.
I forget to let you go.

never thought we could be this close.
never thought it's just the two of us.
never thought we could be alone.
to kiss you is all I wanted.

I don't plan to touch,
I don't plan to stare at your eyes.
cause I know I'd be lost.
cause I know I'd fall deeper.

finest day to start all over.
to be loved or to be in love.
beautiful day to start letting go.
but I found love when I should let go.

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NO PLACE, THE SEAT IS TAKEN.

when we fall into the same hole.
when we're hurt by the same ground.
then we cried by the same reason.
it's when we fall in love with the same person.

when we both keep denying.
when we craved for his attention.
then he treated you and ignore me.
it's when I start to letting go.

thought I was the one.
I saw it in his eyes.
such a lite up and beaming.
it's when I fell for his lies.

when we both don't know our each secret.
it's the best way to prevent the pain.
when we're both still good friends,
I'mma let myself out of the way.

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AUTUMN

Giggling along the conversation.
Bad wound out of vision.
Clenched heart by the realisation.
Time to let go things you're not own.

Sweet taste his lips in fantasy.
His scent had me dizzy.
My eyes blurry like fog in a sea.
Something is hurt but I can't foresee.

Love falls like leaves in autumn.
Heart break feels sting and burnt.
Could never understand, so I run.
Try to run away and no will to turn.

I thought in autumn there's no rain.
I'm feeling a non-exist pain.
Smiling is hard, I feel faint.
Something is hurt, heart is chained.

Laughter filled the room in evening.
Chattering about absolutely nothing.
Keep denying a feeling.
That there's a heart is breaking.

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SHE IS INSECURE

she wears hoodie on summer.

she only got one jacket for winter.

no much money in her pocket,

to effort another pair of jacket.

she hides her face in the book.

no one has an eye to her look.

sometimes she stares at the ground,

to avoid glancing to surround.

her cheeks full of pimples.

those covered her beautiful dimples.

her skin feels rough and dry.

sometimes her eyes are swollen too from cry.

boys come to her for a certain thing.

boys talk to her when they needed something.

they're gone when they're done.

then leave her alone.

boys don't come for her look.

boys never come to her for hook.

she really wants to kick them to a ditch.

for being only nice to the pretty bitch.

she feels herself is ugly.

the body she has is so pudgy.

she lack of confidence.

she wonders if there's a man asking her for a dance.

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IN BETWEEN

It’s easy to see sadness

You can always find it everywhere

You step on glass till your feet bleeding

You’re not sad, you’re hurting

So what is it causing sadness?

Can anybody tell? I can’t unravel it

You can always find sadness everywhere

Without even knowing why

So, what is it between sad and hurt?

What is the difference between them?

You’ve hurt then you cry

You cried cause you’ve been hurt

But it’s not always that way

Though you’ve hurt, you aren’t crying

Strong enough to enjoy the pain

Just wish know how to get through

It’s easy to finding happiness

It’s always been there, but hiding

Seeking for happiness as its say easy

Just wish know how to win

 By: etm

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MONSTER AND ANGEL

I see a stranger in the mirror

It always reflects me so terribly

Looks like a monster

I see a monster, I’m a monster

I break all the mirror

But I keep seeing monster

I couldn’t do this forever

I’m screaming more than ever

How to kill this monster?

I hate seeing this monster

I hate every mirror

I hate to see my reflection

How to kill this monster?

Or could I just kill myself

To end this mosnter?

But just too scared of death

I see a stranger in the mirror

It always refelct me the way I wanted

So beautiful, can’t take mye eyes of it

I see an angel, I’m an angel

I embrace all the mirror

All I see is an absolute beauty

I wanna be this forever

I’m screaming more than ever

How to keep this angel?

I’d love to be this angel

I’m not hating mirror

The reflection isn’t frighten me anymore

How to keep this angel?

Or could I just cage myself?

So nobody can touch

But just too scared for not living a life

by: etm

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SCARED TO BE OLD

Sooo, I wrote some lyrics. maybe it could be a song one day. This all belong to me. Contact me if you feel like want this to be yours. email me raggnesayt@gmail.com . Please no stealing, no plagiarism. Thank you, all the love x

Been afraid for so long

Don’t know what am I afraid of

Just feel so haunted

And don’t know what it is

Walking alone the street

Riding roller coaster

They just don’t get me

I’m not afraid of those

Time passed, another day wasted

I’m getting scared

Time flies, another day wasted

I am more afraid

Till I realize

All I’m afraid is growing up

Scared to be old

Imagine have a wedding ring

Wondering a marriage

They get me so hard

Shivers me everytime

Imagine having kids

Imagine going to work to feed them

I feel so haunted

Shivers me everytime

Time passed, another day wasted

I’m getting scared

Time flies, another day wasted

I am more afraid

Till I realize

All I’m afraid is growing up

I’m scared to be old

Could just Neverland be real?

Peterpan lives young forever

Nothing weighed him down

Flying and laughing

Could just fairytales be exist?

Neverland seems so fun

We have nothing to be scared

Cause we won’t be growing up

By: etm

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LIVING FANTASY

Sooo, I wrote some lyrics. maybe it could be a song one day. This all belong to me. Contact me if you feel like want this to be yours. email me raggnesayt@gmail.com . Please no stealing, no plagiarism. Thank you, all the love x

My eyes are shuting

But I see everything

Am I sleeping right now?

Am I dreaming right now?

Could you just tell me why?

Living fantasy never this good

Until reality wakes me up

I open my eyes, I see lies

If I could ask one wish

Could I just live in fantasy?

Cause all I’m gonna see is something fancy

If I could ask one wish

Could I just leave the reality?

Cause all I’m gonna see is something shitty

River of milk, tree of money

Clothes are made of silk, honey

The love isn’t one sided

Cause it’s already handed

Tell me your favorite color

I’ll paint your room and door

You jumped off the cliff

I’ll catch you like a drift

If I could ask one wish

Could I just live in fantasy?

Cause all I’m gonna see is something fancy

If I could ask one wish

Could I just leave the reality?

Cause all I’m gonna see is something shitty

I won’t be sad if I’m crying

I’ll be laughing and loving

I’m welcoming you home

To enjoy our coffee or some

I will kiss you in the rain

To wash away all the pain

Fantasy never this so good

Until reality wakes me up.

By: etm

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LEANED BACK

Sooo, I wrote some lyrics. maybe it could be a song one day. This all belong to me. Contact me if you feel like want this to be yours. email me raggnesayt@gmail.com . Please no stealing, no plagiarism. Thank you, all the love x

Deep inside you cried
Though you’ve tried
So clueless about the world
The world beats you down
Tried to get up
Eyes watching, judging
You crawled to the surface
Looking for the air to free your heavy lung
Will the world keep weigh your down?
No, it won’t. It’ll never


You cried, still
Nobody see your tears
Good.
You’re parying for strenght
Tears cascade through your cheecks
You’re running
You’re running
You’re running
Through the trees
Leaned back
You are fine


You don’t wanna come home
Some faces haunted you
Faces of high hope
Hope
You feared of that hope
Feared
Pain is all you’re gonna see
Hope causes pain
You feared of that hope
You don't wanna in pain


You cried, still
Nobody see your tears
Good.
You’re parying for strenght
Tears cascade through your cheecks
You’re running
You’re running
You’re running
Through the trees
Leaned back
You are fine


In the end, you’ll be thinking
It’s not the world that knocked you down
All the world is in your head
Your head weighed you down
Set it free
Eyes keep watching, judging
Let them be
In the end, you’ll be thinking
Those eyes watching,
They admired you




By: etm

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CRUSH

Crush

Crush, can you just love me back?

Crush, I really love you

Crush, I want you be mine

Crush, I hope someday you and I become us

Crush, your name is in my heart

Crush, I wonder if you have a same way about me

Crush, I love you more than you know, though you’ll never know

Crush, your name always resound in my head

Crush, your name is my favourite name

Crush, I always relate about your name with mine

Crush, you don’t know how bad it feels had crushed on you

Crush, I want you to want me

Crush, every texts I get I hope it’s from you

Crush, every little thing I do, it reminds me of you

Crush, why can’t you just get out of my head ?

Crush, do you love me?

Crush, I’m glad to see you

Crush, I love your smell

Crush, I love your voice

Crush, I love your eyes

Crush, I love the way you talk

Crush, I love everything about you

Crush, you’re one of my reason to live

Crush, I always think about you before I fall asleep

Crush, I wanna kiss you

Crush, I wanna hug you

Crush, see your laughter is one of my happiness

Crush, I don’t want another girls get closer to you

Crush, I’m dying to know you never love me

Crush, I’ve written your name in my heart as the one I loved

Crush, you are safe in my heart

Crush, I see something beautiful in your eyes

Crush, I’m falling in love with you

Crush, though just one moment I really wanna hold you

Crush, can we just go somewhere just you and me?

Crush, you have no idea how much I addicted to you!

Crush, are we just friend ? is there more?

Crush, you’re one of my secret.

Crush, you’re the thing that I told to my bestfriend

Crush, I’m glad you came

Crush, I love you enough to let you go

Crush, do I mean nothing to you?

Crush, why you don’t love me?

Crush, you’re like an indian summer in the middle of winter

Crush, I can’t wait to see you again

Crush, not loving you is harder than you know

Crush, everytime someone says your name my heart beats faster

Crush, I can’t deny what I feel about you

Crush, your voice was the soundtrack of my summer

Crush, your eyes are the brightest of all the colors

Crush, what’s wrong with me that makes you don’t want me?

Crush, I won’t hurt you

Crush, I won’t make you cry

Crush, I’ll keep you till my last breathe

Crush, I always try to be a good person

Crush, but why I never be good enough for you?

Crush, I know I’m not beautiful but I love you

Crush, I miss you everytime

Crush, text me first please

Crush, I can’t take my eyes of you

Crush, I Love You an

Crush, can you feel my heart?

Crush, you’re just one of the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen

Crush, I’m here still waiting for you

Crush, I hope you think about me

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